Still Standing - Stronger than Before

When I started writing that first blog in this recent series, I had already come out of the darkest part. I wasn’t in the middle of the mess anymore, but I was still piecing things back together—still figuring out how to be intentional again in my walk with God. Writing became part of the healing process. It helped me get things out, process the emotions, and hopefully encourage someone else who might feel stuck like I had been.

The second post, Heavy, was raw. It was born out of a season of shame and frustration with myself—not because of one huge mistake, but because of how easy it had become to drift. To slowly stop being intentional. I had just spent more than a year pouring into my book and then into the Bible study I was writing with Landon… and when both of those wrapped up, I didn’t realize how much I had let those projects become my way of feeling close to God. Without them, I stopped showing up as consistently, and it caught up with me.

But here’s what I’m grateful for—I didn’t stay there.

I’m not just climbing out of that space anymore. I’m on the other side of it. I’m standing again. And honestly? I feel stronger than I did before.

There’s a different kind of connection in my faith right now. A deeper trust. A bigger desire to spend time with God—not because I need content or direction for a project, but just because I miss Him when I don’t. That’s new for me. Or maybe not new… maybe just renewed.

I don’t say this to sound like I’ve figured it all out. I haven’t. I’ll struggle again, I’m sure. But this time, something feels different. I’m not just surviving—I’m really walking with Him again. My priorities feel clearer. My quiet time is meaningful. My worship feels personal. The temptations that used to grab my attention just don’t hold the same weight anymore.

And I know it’s not because I got better or stronger. It’s because I finally gave God the space to do what only He can do—restore, renew, and remind me that His grace hasn’t run out.

I’ve quoted Proverbs 3:6 so many times—“In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” It’s on my website. It’s in my book. It’s something I’ve tried to build my life around. But now, I feel like I understand it even more. When I finally acknowledged Him again—when I came back and said, “I need You”—He didn’t hesitate. He got me back on track. Straightened the path beneath me. And walked right beside me, like He never left.

So if you’ve been there—or if you’re there right now—I hope this encourages you. God’s not finished with you. He wasn’t finished with me.

And today, I can honestly say: I’m still standing.

Stronger than before.